Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Seeds

That is the name of this short film which was produced by two young men whom I am fortunate enough to call my friends and whom I admire immensely:

https://vimeo.com/120817795#at=1766

As I watched this film for the second time, I was overwhelmed with emotions about how much I appreciate, love, and owe this program. After being a participant, coordinator, and core team member, I can say that this program has changed my  life for the better. It has given me direction in my passions and my own discernment process for my future.

Watch it. Love it. Appreciate it.

I have and I always will.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

When Class Turns into a Therapy Session

Though I really don't have time to blog right now, my last class was rather inspirational for a blog post and I haven't blogged in a while so here we go.

This semester I am fortunate enough to be taking one of the most coveted honors classes: Imagination to Invention. A lot of people see this class as an easy A, there really is not a lot of reading, and if I am being honest, we draw half of the time. All of this being said, I think that if people are truly engaging the material presented, they can learn a lot about themselves, how they think, and how to apply that to the world that they live in.

Before spring break we did a lot of activities involving our Meyers Briggs scores (I am INFJ (or INFP according to my prof)) and we did a simulation of handling chaos. Now that we are back from spring break, we analyzed our chaos activity in accordance with our Meyers Briggs scores and the five stages of death and dying. The five stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. Often times when experiencing times of chaos like poor personal health news, break ups, job changes, etc, people will go through the stages of death and dying. This is something that I knew, but what I didn't realize is that according to your Meyers Briggs score, you may get stuck in one of the stages. Because I am NF, my professor said that I am likely to find myself stuck in the depression stage.

This for me was life changing - and this is not an exaggeration. Recently I have experienced my own form of chaos in my life and a feeling of dull sadness has been present ever since. I breezed right through the denial, anger, and bargaining, but have been sitting in sadness. It really sucks. However, my professor found a way to help me. By knowing that my predisposition to depressive tendencies is simply a part of my personality, I suddenly feel okay. Yes, I am still sad. I will be sad, but this sadness does not define me nor will it last forever. My professor, without even realizing it, was able to help me manage my sadness and I will be grateful to her for that for a long time.

No need to worry about me. I will keep on keeping on and I have wonderful friends and family to support me through this moment of chaos.

In other news, spring break is over which means that I was able to spend 9 beautiful days with 7 of my best friends. We went to Miami for the week and then spent St. Patrick's day in Chicago. I was able to see an old friend that I have not seen in a long time and I was able to explore the city where I will be living next year. Overall, break was wonderful and now I need to remain present to the end of my undergraduate experience.